My Life with Twin Sons

Soul searching

I have been going thru a lot in this last few month and have been debating what my future holds.

I am currently taking a course for medical transcription, so far its going good. I have been having a hard time finding time to study becuz I’m with my kids all the time. Don’t get me wrong I love my kids to death, but a break once and a while would be great.

I love my kids father, but the days he says “you are both driving me crazy” or “I can’t handle this” makes me wonder why he wanted kids in the first place. I go out and do something on my own and then i get calls of, how to do this and that, and should i do this for them, or how much should i give them. Are you not a grown adult, cant you give out something on your own.

The verbal insults have started, in front of the kids. there are times i feel like that i am back as a little kid and living in my parents home. I dont want that for my kids. There are many times that i want him gone, from this house and me and the boys are on our own. i know that it would affect the boys in a major way but i would deal with it.

Kids have gone so far and told their dad that, they wanted him to get a 2nd job so that i can stay home with them. we are in a major hole and i had asked him a long time ago to get another job and then the fights started. He feels that if he gets another job that its going to kill him. u know cuz that would be nice to help the family and i could stay home with the kids.

this is an on going battle, my mood has been crappy and depressing so we are going to again try and get help from the county so we will see what happens

Please learn from me..

We are going thru a rough time and i hope that when everything is said and done that we come out on top, and i know its going to take a while. Everyone tells you that your credit control every aspect of your life, this statement is so damn true.

My MIL has dementia.. and as the days go on its getting worse. She is currently in a nursing home being taken care of. Before she started getting worse we tried getting her to give her only son POA for her so that we can make the major decisions for her and her future. She made every excuse there was not to do it. So as of today and cuz of his credit he is in control of her medical aspects. He went to court this morning and she was appointed a legal guardian, and even thro its early on but I don’t like her, but its early on so i’m going to give it a chance. There is alot in the back story, that I’m not going into right now, but the other perosn involved will get what they deserve. I need a vacation… looking into Outer Banks rentals is sounding good.

Taking tests

What’s the biggest stress that kids had back when I was in school, many moons ago. Was it who was dating who, not really we knew that. Was it who was the big group of friends, nope there was a few big group of friends. It was test days, well the big important test days. NO2 Black… Think back and u know its true